
On contemplating suicide while having a bath one night: ‘Maybe it was the pot and the alcohol, but drowning myself seemed like the logical way to escape the ridiculous life I was leading.’ĥ. But I grew to feel it was meant to lock me in.’Ĥ. On feeling imprisoned: ‘Everyone thinks that the infamous metal gate was meant to keep people out. They found my optimistic attitude corny and my confidence threatening, so they did whatever they could to tear me down.

According to their ruthless taunting, I was the 'thick girl' from Nowheresville, USA. On the rivalry between Holly and Hugh’s six other girlfriends: ‘After being identified by the other girlfriends as persona non grata, I had become the victim of their ruthless 'mean girl-ing.' During dinners or movie screenings, it wasn't out of the ordinary for me to overhear their loud whispers criticising my appearance (my hair, my face, my clothes.
